After drinking wine disguised in a mug last weekend I decided I should do something about my habit. I stopped drinking on Monday.
Yesterday after an argument with John, I decided a nice glass of wine would be just right, and since I hadn’t drank in two days I could do it. I went to the store on the way home and bought a box of wine. If I needed a glass it would be there. Turns out I didn’t need it! Yippee!
The deeper question has yet to be asked, “Is it a habit or a dependency?”
I think it may be too soon to tell. I’ve been drinking wine every night for the past five years. It coincided with the beginning of my medication for Bipolar II. I used it as a way to make me feel something because the medication seemed to squash my feelings. Now I feel great with my cocktail (no pun intended) and enough time has gone by that I have adjusted to the new me.
Of course, the ultimate goal is always to lose weight 🙂 and that side effect will be welcomed with open arms.